not that i wasn't happy before. i'm-a-always going to be happy, and even if sometimes i ain't, i'm gonna grab my leaf blower and blow that un-happiness away to my neighbor's lawn as if it was the autumn leaves that blanket the earth like a seasonal task. un-happiness, NIMBY is all i got to say to you.
but yeeees! i'm excited. i know inside them next six months different ian's are lurking and smirking waiting for the current ian to come upon them, interact, fight, love and transcend. as an organizer in training at the LCSC/BRU i think for the first time in my life i will be challenged to the point of doubting myself. i'll probably meet parts of myself that i don't want to see and don't want to be seen. i'll find buttons i never pushed and if i had known about them i would have been pushing it like the tempo on a sultry dance floor.
i think i still don't understand the full extent of what LA means for me and what it can and will mean to me. but i do know that i love the people here. just the hugs i've received from people are enough to make me know that i embrace this place, and this place has embraced me in it's own raw way. this place has mad love to offer and all i want to do is soak it all in, left and right, until i become all soggy and bloated. but really, it's all good cause i'll just lay in the LA sun until i'm all fresh and spongy again to start it all over. love is what moves me and all i want to do is wake up with love in my eyes, receive all the love that people whisper to each other like weak signals of an overloaded wireless thingamjig.
so if you see me better watch out cause i'm gonna go all blue tooth on ya love.
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