Friday, November 21, 2008

The Introspective G minor

It is finally time. Fate has taken its course and the pieces are set for me to leave. After roughly 5 good bye parties (many a person has wondered how many good byes parties does it take to get this man out of here?) sometimes involving the same people that spanned for approximately a month, it's finally real, I am transplanting myself to India, or maybe even incubating myself in india. So fortunately no more saying good byes and then running into you again and being like "Er, hi, i mean bye!"
Everyone, and by everyone i'm using the teenage standard of 2 to 3 people, has asked me how i feel, and interestingly enough all i feel is that i am covered with attachments to the past rather than of hopes and fears of the future. †It feels like a mixture of longing for the past and desire to†secretly†set the clock ahead a year so i:ll be back around the people i care about and whom i:ve developed a deep sense of appreciation for. I cannot express how much the past half of year since graduation but especially the past month and an half have affected me. Just the sheer density of cool people around me was something akin to the gravity of a †blackhole that's made me question the laws of physics because i don't know how i was able to extract myself from the extreme allure, attraction and seduction of my friends and family. †As the laws of physics have been disproved I will engage in some unlawful activity myself. I normally desist from doing shout outs because i never liked them, mainly because i always get excluded, and i do so hesitantly realizing i am doing upon my neighbor that which i detest. †So I do so with the understanding that i will exclude some and fail to give due appreciation to where it belongs but i have been sooo imbued with love, warmth and inspiration that I cannot help but share the petals of love that you all have given me. I want to start out with people who have had a big part in providing that warm fuzziness in my tummy. Yes i said warm fuzy feeling. don't be fresh, you know what i'm talking about.

The first person has to be Victoria Chia, hailing from Knoxville Tennessee, who I feel like I have been friends the longest for in the US, although i've never told her this. We never seem to make great effort to be around each other but you’re humor, honesty and all around Chia Vixiness is something that always makes me smile, be happy and laugh out loud. Kelsey Tanaka for being so calm and well balanced but exuding warmth from every word and step you take. You may be the most subtly thoughtful person that I know, and thanks for understanding me:) Mendy Cheng for being so chill and accepting and just soo yo yo yo! You sometimes seem like you’re out of it but you’re always wit it and I soo appreciate the contrast and your semi-sneaky smile. I really hope we’ll get to see each other even if you go back to Taiwan. Nicole Eng for your creativity, open dorkiness and you’re shear geniousness and generosity that often seem to get overlooked by a society filled with grey shadowless pepole. I can:t express enough how much I enjoyed being your office-mate and house-mate. your pink journal you gave me is my favorite thing i have. I want to appreciate Jill Izumi Mizokami for just being the best birthday mate i've ever had. it is my honor to share october 14 with you. I’ve only known you for a 2 week but it feels I’ve known you for a lifetime or at least a past lifetime when you were a tanuki and I a kitsune in the same forest! and Riku for gift of shape shifting. so soo applicable to my life.
soo many more people but i need to stop at some point... this is just people who've touched me in the past couple of months. buuuutt thanks to mary rose, sophia, francesca, lisa, espie, gabe, patrick, jess, emi, joyce, andres, nanako, miyabi, maria tucker, sergio, paul, allie, tam, lucille, jeanette... shoot i'm blanking. i'll add more later. you can do that on blogs right? edit function? i wish i could apply to my life. sooo
i could go on and on about people and nice things about you all and i seriously have more nice things to say about you all than the amount of hair i have on my head, and if you know me, you know how much hair i have, so much love to all. seriously, not just for the sake of saying so but because i really feel it. i've left out yukochi, rieko, mark, kai and seico but i need another another 3 hours and 30 pages to express how much you all mean to me. in short thanks all for nurturing me and allowing to grow and tranform like a like a like a transformer? i'll probably edit that when i think of a new one.

ps i'm already actually in india but i had to post this at some point. don't extensions work in the blogosphere as well? india is pretty cool. so stay tuned for next update.

pps i know this is stupid but google themes is sooo tight! the fox one is cool cause i identify with the Kitsune man. wikipedia that you all if you don't know what it is. very applicable to life, as Riku would know.